naked men at the gym and automatic toilets

i love taking showers at my gym more than at my house... anybody know why?? i know you know.

because it's prettiful and i feel comfortable showering in a prettiful shower room? o dont be so naive. you know what i'm talking about.

well duh obviously because i get.......................

free body wash and free shampoo and free hair conditioner and free water and free towels and i can take all the time i want in it without having to worry about my family hurrying me up. the cheap ass that i am. *beep... beep... no sarcasm detected here* but seriously this is the major reason why i love taking showers at my gym.
the minor reason is the frosted glass walls (no more than 1 cm thick) each shower is separated by. =)
so you can pretty well see the silhouette of the guys inside them. and i had found out recently if you get the shower with the frosted glass facing you you can wet them and get a better view of the guy next to you for some weird reason. so the perv that i am i would splash some water on it and... watch. lol ok i dont just stand there and wait but it'd be nice when you do get the hot guy. and rarely do i get the hot guy anyways.

the shower doors are swinging glass doors and its got a gap of at least an inch or so so that you can kind of have a good look at the guy inside it. but i wouldn't dare because you know if you can see them they can as well see you seeing them. and that's looking for a black eye. so i think it was either yesterday or 2 days ago i was taking a shower and i see this creepy old asian dude looking into my shower! and he was watching me for at least 1 minute or something... at least if you're gonna watch me do it more discreetly. like i'm flattered and all but...
i dont even watch other men taking a shower and let them know i'm watching them. i watch through frosted glass walls instead. but the picky guy that i am it's not likely my type of guy would suddenly be showering right next to me. he's gotta have the right build, the right tan, the right hair color, the right height, and of course the right thickness of bulbol (filipino word) to really turn me on.

by far one of the best-looking public showers i've ever seen in my life. the bathroom is so clean too. but it's got those automatic toilets that'd flush by itself you know? well they're really annoying. many times i'd be wiping my ass it'd just suddenly flush on its own as if telling me to hurry the fuck up. because when i wipe i... *re-enacting wiping procedure* would slightly lean to my left and lift my right thigh and wipe. so since i guess my body would be displaced and the toilet sensor senses it, it would then flush on its own? sorry this is too much information MOVING ON.

and the gym is always playing the literally the gayest songs ever. they're pretty much the gay club songs that, i remember, my gay cousin would listen to. ie madonna, lady gaga, beyonce, toni braxton, etc. nothing wrong with these songs, just a little... unorthodox in such a... (fuck i suck at picking out words) "macho" place. it's late i gotta sleep.

hey remember my co-worker crush? well he's apparently an accountant back in the philippines and he got to do my tax refund for this year. and thanks to him i'll be getting back $700. not too shabby for college.

next post i should share you some more interesting gay stories back in my early teens days...
not a very long post. good night take care and God bless always.

it's all about mikey. o and tim tebow... yum.

and the new face of biangularshape to replace my (still) darling miranda kerr is--drumroll please... TIM TEBOW! because some gay bloggers are complaining about nakie miranda *cough cough CRAIG*

he's really hot, even though he is a little on the pale side. if you thought that mark sanchez was a hot qb this guy, i say, blew him out of the water. maybe sanchez is a tad bit better-lookin on the face but tebow pwns sanchez's body. (who still says "pwns"?)
i didn't watch much college football but i did see him in gq and it was one of those moments where you're just flipping through the pages and you just abruptly stop. o and he's gonna be QBing for my hometown denver alongside orton. some say he's questionable whether his college skills are good enough for the pro league.

so a lot of mikey commotion these past few days. what do i think of it?

where to start... this dude's an asshole if he really is fake.
although i am very angry to hear this but to be honest, i dont feel as sad as many others despite my reading every single post he's written. possibly because for one, i can only connect with him on so limited terms. two, i've never had an actual conversation with him. i really wanted to but i thought why should i bother trying to reach a celebrity blogger who's probably already volleying 50 other emails a day or something. that's why i like to follow blogs with little followers. that way i can actually talk to him or her if i ever wanted to.
*anylitical/conspiracy mode: on*
hmm i just tried to open mikeynation just now and it said it has been closed down for "investigation"... this is pretty serious eh? i see a mainstream news article (wtf is "mainstream" news article, joey?) sometime in the future regarding this chaos of gay blogsworld.

i really didn't have time to really look into this craziness but i do have some questions.
i was reading some of the comments posted on outsports.com and i kind of have to wonder whether he's real or is he just trying to defend his anonymity by revealing his "true" self to... jimmy? how do we know if this jimmy guy is even real? even if the blog was fake what was his motive in writing a fake blog for months on end constantly bombarded by comments and emails and having the audacity and patience to reply to them all? why didn't he write one last post to create an alibi of some sort in response to jimmy's post on mikeynation? just something, y'kno? as if he completely disappeared into thin air after jimmy's post. i would imagine mikey being the author of mikeynation that he'd immediately take down the post, no? something's fishy.

who to believe...?

i have a feeling this mikey guy meant no harm. maybe he did at first but as more and more readers follow him he starts to feel guilty if he were ever to confess too early. as if he had said "what have i gotten myself into" and just continued blogging and on the way helping many gay athletes who read his blog. but of course as so many have said, who cares if he's real or not. we've been brought together into a little community thanks to his blog. and i agree with what they say that even though it was a fake blog there are many many other mikeys out there going through a similar life. go ahead and cry for a little but don't cry for too long. the real people (at least i believe so) like me and craig and maddy are always here for you guys.

one thing that struck me recently was craig's most recent post. so he took a pic of himself from the neck down and stuck a piece of paper (badly) written on it "gay football--->er". i'm thinking of doing this too. sorry to steal your idea craig but it's brilliant. lol but that made my day. i nominate craig to be the next MIKEY. who here agrees?! he writes a better, much more interesting blog than mikey anyways. *obam--craig! craig! craig!*

and i end this post with a certain gay high schooler article that was featured in GQ a few months ago. it's kind of a long read but definetely worth the read. it's in a way i guess is similar to what's going on with the mikey shenanigan at the moment... the internet is scary. k g'nite n God bless always guys.

"best friends", naked college guys, and HIM

havent been here for awhile. not like any of you miss me anyways! lol

it's late at night again here. cant sleep again.

obviously i got a lot to talk about since i've been away for so long. so a lot of random stuff once again in this post...

as i was reading one of mikey's blog posts of his "real best friend" it makes me wonder why until now i am not able to call any of my friends my "best friend"...
back in denver i had a really good friend that i've known since i was 9 until we parted ways when i was 15 (15 - 9 = 6). knew for 6 years? well i still keep in touch with him now OCCASIONALLY via facebook and stuff but not so much now. he used to be really cool back when we were kids. now he's like really arrogant and shit.
here in toronto i also have one friend i'm somewhat tight with. he's like 7 years older than me though so he's more like a big brother than an actual best friend. we both love to clown around. ya we do a lot of shit together but... we're just too nice to each other. in my opinion a best friend is someone who you've gone through a lot of stuff together. even verbal and/or fist fights (i've had these fights with the friend back in denver). me and this guy? we've never had any fights together since i've known him (in 2006). by the way, this guy is the guy who is marrying my pastor's daughter that i mentioned in one of my earlier posts.
i've moved a lot. specifically, i've been to 4 different high schools, 12 schools in total. i wonder why i'm never able to make much friends at school.
both of those friends of mine were church friends. although you move schools (in the same city) it's not likely that you'll also move churches. so many of my close friends are church friends.
still on a life-long quest to find the best friend.
i want a best friend who's also into fashion and adventurous and stuff. pretty much what i like to do, obviously.

the closest thing to a best friend would have to be... my oldest sister. (maybe i'll also introduce them to you guys the way craig did. maybe).
and she is to be deported back to my country in 3 weeks... long story.

moving on.

i own these ridiculous graphic south park boxers (something like in the picture but mine's a little different) and i admit that i am kind of embarassed to wear it at the gym while the rest of the guys are wearing their boxer briefs lol
to wal-mart we gooooo

as i was browsing for porn i ran into this. anybody hear of this fratpad? i think it is absolutely ridonkulous... in a way it is kind of hot but... to me its more of curiosity and wonder rather than actual lust. honestly these guys arent the type of guys i get off to anyways--not really into young twinks. these are straight dudes (living?) in one house almost always naked and doing "gay" things together and i really think it's bullshit. but then again in some of their videos how do they keep limp while doing some other "gay" things (like naked twister LOL funniest thing ever). how much are they getting paid to do this if they are actually straight?? and wouldn't they worry if their friends caught them on a gay porn website like this? i think it is very... mind-boggling. and they have these competitions of who can come the fastest. and once they do, they blow it on each other. yuck, not a big fan of come. they're nasty. they stink. of bleach. and these "straight" guys are spewing it all over each other. for fun. wtf lol

also another random porn fact about me. i like seeing bottomless (hot) men more than fully naked ones for some odd reason. y'kno like a t-shirt on but nothing else below it?

i think i told one or some of you that i was about to tell you about my feelings toward my co-worker? the one that i said used to be fat and now has a totally bangin body? well it was at first just whatever. but then i'm starting to really like him. actually i think it's more like a girly crush than an actual i-want-you-to-be-my-boyfriend type of situation. he's filipino. he's such a joker. a dork. but his body is just... mmm... it's nice and meaty. nevertheless i still don't really want to see him naked because like i've constantly repeated to you guys, if we're tight friends it's unlikely i'd want to strip him off his clothes.
we're always slapping each others' asses (it's nothing sexual really). he's married and has kids so i don't think he's gay... but then there's always that small chance that he might also be bi! =D he's very touchy. at work he's always grabbing my arm and lightly pulling me to the side and stuff. sometimes he'd come from behind and with one arm wrapping me around my waist and i'd be trying to push him away (don't know how to describe this). once in the staff room he randomly lightly pressed me against the wall and pretended to be kissing me (like the passionate kind too. not the awkward kind) in front of one of our co-worker. of course i was trying to push him back once more pretending i don't enjoy it. they'd never think it's serious because we both are constantly checking out hot female customers and trying to get their numbers lol

so today i told him "hey i want to tell you something. it's not that i dont trust you that you won't tell anybody--because i do. just that i feel that it might... distance our friendship. i'm scared of how you'll react [can you guys blame me?]"
and he's all like giddy and like "omg dude what is it??"
i said "it has something to do with me... and a certain other co-worker"
and he's like "yo you're not screwin around with any of the girls here [at work] are you?? hahaha ok ok tell me who it is man! i won't tell nobody."
little does he know that that certain somebody else is him. so i told him "maybe i'll tell you when i'm just about to resign this june. so dude just wait like a couple more months."
and he was like "naww man just tell me now! lol why you doing this to me!? the suspense is killin me..." and he was like buggin me the whole day for me to tell him.
i kinda regret telling him this early to be honest. i can't believe he might just be the first person i'll be coming out to. i trust that he won't go around telling people this because for one, he knows that i know of a certain adulterous secret about him and another female co-worker that i can pass on to the manager, aka his wife's sister, and have him packing and on the next flight to manila. i would never do that but i know he knows i have the power to do that. and also luckily he's not the type to gossip (at least he doesn't seem so).

why am i deciding to come out to him? maybe because he has no connection to any of my close friends or family. or maybe i have too high of hopes to expect him to say "dude, i'm also bi! now let's hook up." after i tell him. =) could happen who knows. and what happens then? good question.

what's in it for the next post? maybe i want to tell you a little more of how my christianity and my bisexuality intertwine...


k g'nite guys n God bless always.

my perfect partner

short post. got nothing to talk about...

k its really late and i can't sleep so might as well write a blog post.
what does my perfect girlfriend sound like?

character-wise?.... i like girls who are pretty much like me but not exactly the same. she's gotta be creative, funny, spontaneous, adventurous, willing to try new things, and also relatively strong in her christian faith (even though this may be quite problematic after i would come out to her). she cant be the jealous type or the controlling type. she's gotta be caring... towards others, but at the same time have some attitude. i also like strong-willed girls. she shouldn't be "sensitive". she's gotta be full of life and an optimist. a "social butterfly" is what i also look for. she needs to know when to have fun n when to get serious. she's gotta be insightful and deep BUT not too judgmental at the same time. having some sense of art would be nice. i'm not a exactly the go-getter. i would like a girl who's able to motivate me to be more of one. she can't be afraid to get dirty to get something important done. and of course i would love a girl who's fashion-forward like me but even more! she should be able to dress with class, dress with style, dress with character n also dress with attitude--to stand out from the rest, a trailblazing fashionista.

not realistic but quite possible. =P

in a man...? pretty much the same shit but... he's gotta be protective and physically strong =) i think i'd be the woman in the relationship. why would i wanna be the man when i can be one with another girl right? switch roles! lol and also he doesn't need to be fashion-forward. athleticism is definetely a plus but not always necessary.

any questions?

k g'nite guys n God bless always.

"The old theory was 'Marry an older man, because they're more mature.' But the new theory is: 'Men don't mature. Marry a younger one.'"

same deal as last time. i'm gonna be all over the place again. i think i should keep it like this. it gives my blog originality and keeps it down to earth. i think this post is going to be much shorter than the previous ones though, not much to talk about.

i think i'm losing a lot of hair. i believe it started 2 septembers ago when i worked at this factory and i used to wear a hat 8 hrs/day, 5 days/wk. i'm not exactly sure what the cause of it may have been but i definetely do not recall ever shedding this much hair before then. maybe it was my shampoo... i don't know. my hair abnormalities started when i was 15 i think. between the ages of 12-15 yrs old i used to use that garnier fructis stuff almost every single day (because my hair can't stand being unwashed for a day or else it'll get all greasy and shit) and there were no problems then. 15, not sure what went wrong but my scalps started to itch real bad--to the point where it went all red. so then i changed shampoos, to pantene pro-v (i think thats what its called. the 2 in 1 shampoo/conditioner thingy). i used the volumizing kind because i love my hair nice and thick.
ok i may sound really metrosexual but i really am not lol. i only use like 2 hair products: my shampoo and my hair gel. it'd be nice if i were disciplined enough to groom myself well but trust me, if you see me now i'm far from the typical metro dude. would like to be but am not.
anyways. so from 15-18 i've been using this pantene shampoo almost everyday too. but then 2 septembers ago, whether it was because the factory or the hat-wearing or my shampoo, i started to lose a lot of hair! like at least a dozen more than i've noticed when i shampoo it in the shower! i'm even losing them as i simply ruffle my hair--well not much much but definetely more than before that september. i should ask the doctor if this is normal. because apparently i'm losing much more than hair than a few years ago.
even until this day at my coffee shop they require the staff to wear hats all day. so i pretty much not even bother taking care of my hair now, just as long as its not too greasy.
back in school i used to gel my hair almost everyday. now, i cut my hair twice a year. i cant exactly express my... "creative" hairstyles now that i gotta wear a hat 8 hrs/day. cant wait til college this september. bushy bushy bomb hairdo here i come (bomb as in cool... again)

oh and also i've been having these stretch marks all over my body. unlike my hair loss, i know for sure how i got these. i used to be really skinny all throughout my life util i turned 17. i just blew up into mediocrity. no more chopstick legs. but these stretch marks are quite a bother. it's not obvious obvious but i definetely see/feel them myself. across my chest, the top of my calves, my lower back, my inner thighs, sides of my knees, on my penis--joke--and the most obvious on the sides of my ass cheeks. ok i'll wait til you stop laughing...
ya so recently somebody suggested i buy those cream for pregnant ladies--actually its after their pregnancy. and i did. maybe the cashier thought my "wife" just gave birth... i hear its like permanent but what the cream does is to limit any other stretch marks in the future or something? noooooo lol

i've been trying to apply for a credit card here in canada but so many companies didn't approve any of my applications. their excuse was that i don't have any credit history... uhh well how the hell am i supposed to start my credit history if none of y'alls are hatin on me? lol i swear man i'm so hopeless. it's not that i really need a credit card at the moment but it'd be nice to shop online or buy my plane tickets by myself you know. i tried canadian tire, sears, hbc, rbc bank, and even my own bank of TD Canada Trust. i applied to capital one and was accepted but... they have an annual fee of $75. why the fuck would i want a credit card that charges me more than what i spend on it a year? so i say no thanks. anybody out there have any suggestions for me, a canadian who has no credit history? i applied for the TD visa online so maybe i should just directly speak to my banker directly... duh.

so yesterday we celebrated my niece's 3rd birthday. i didn't really know what to get her... she likes to watch barbie... ok barbie it is then. i havent been to toys r us since i was 12 i think. man the store sure felt much smaller this time. i miss buying my pokemon stuff at toys r us. it was fun when it lasted. but anyways. i've never had to buy a barbie doll in my life before. i'm not gonna lie to you and say i didn't feel awkward--kinda, not so much. i didn't know barbies costed so much... or maybe i'm just cheap. i found it was funny how the cashier immediately asked me if i wanted a gift receipt. and how do you know i'm not some barbie collector of some sort!? sexist... =P
so i got her this barbie with the vespa... it looks kinda neat and i saw my niece was very pleased with it when she unwrapped it. "omg thank you uncle joey! i love you i love you i love you" i think she meant it--joke.


TIME FOR UBERLY FABULOUSLY FANTABULOUS FASHIONNNNN

ok i honestly dont say fabulous too often, if not at all. what i say is "you're hot"--i mean "that's hot"
i am constantly changing fashion-wise. i went from the ecko-loving 8th grader to burberry-worshipping 9th grader to bathing in hollicrombie clothes in 11th grade to... now. before, i was obsessed with brands. today i just look down on those who are. i now wear the clothes more than the brand. one of my pet peeves is those who flaunt designer labels so anybody in a mile radius can see what they're wearing. i was that. i may still wear the labels occasionally but they're strictly only the... "less known" brands. i forgot who said it but they said "where is the luxury when you see it everywhere?" so damn true. what i say is when it comes to trends--whether they be cars, clothes, tattoos, music you listen to, whatever--follow from the few and set for the many. i try to keep away from designer logos such as gucci, burberry, louis vuitton, versace, D&G, fendi, chanel, armani, coach, christian audigier, diesel, etc. (to name a few). not that i don't like these brands but its the average people who wear them and think they're the shit. you don't really look richer wearing these logos, you just look more pathetic and unoriginal. (btw, the sweater in the pic has got to be fugliest piece of clothing i've ever seen that has LV written all over it. must've been one of my fellow asian friends who made it--was that racist? but i'm asian too though lol). if you know how to wear the clothes without having to flaunt those dreadful designer logos then i salute to you my fashionista friend. some stores i like to shop at are cheap stores. h&m n zara are bargains, awesome shit.

when did i become less interested in these designer brand logos? maybe it was the day i opened up a GQ magazine. i've been subscribing to it since august of 2008 and have been enjoying every single issue ever since. it is the gateway for the everyday men, taking them from pop culture to haute culture (not couture, thats different... haute couture is lady gaga). it may be considered to be the metrosexual men's magazine. it covers everything men, from fashion to women to the showbiz industry to food to sports to fitness to cars to travel to even politics. and at times it can be quite immature and hella funny. talk about immature men i'm not sure who said this but i saw this on facebook "The old theory was 'Marry an older man, because they're more mature.' But the new theory is: 'Men don't mature. Marry a younger one.'"
sick-ass mag. go and check one out guys if you havent.

that is all for today ladies and gentlemen. i'll share you in my next post character-wise what men and women turn me on. what my dream partner would sound like. =)
take care and God bless always mates.

haha yes my first hyperlink!

sniffing dirty briefs...

k so try to keep up with me today haha. so i got this new idea that maybe i should make notes of certain topics i would want to cover in my next blog posts into my iphone. that way i wouldn't forget about what i want to write later. ya i'm a nerd like that but i think it'd really help. so i got a couple of stuff to talk about and it will be all over the place here. buckle up guys

alright so first off. as i was browsing other people's blogs these past few days i found this blog at beefydudes.blogspot.com (btw, how do you guys like link a website using only a word or something here? you know what i'm talking about? without having to write the whole URL). anyways if any of you are wondering what i meant by "macho-ugly" from my last post refer to the men on that blog--ok not ALL of them i find attractive... maybe like 40% of them. the other 60% of those dudes are just either too fat or too muscular or too hairy or not hairy enough or too pale or too dark-skinned... so maybe its more of a 30-70 ratio then i guess. i dunno i'm very picky when it comes to which men i'd like to see naked. i'm not hating on the 70%, just pointing out which of them get me hard. like honestly out of those hundreds of pix less than 20 of them probably got my blood running down there... (and not much ass or pubes pix either so, booo. pretty hot guys nevertheless)

so about chipotle from my last post, i forgot to share you guys an embarassing story of my sister. so chipotle came into canada (toronto) august of 2008 if i'm not wrong. we've been in toronto since 2005 so we were deprived of chipotle burritos for 3 years by then. my sister, the peppy and bubbly and annoying girl she is just had to make a scene when it first opened here on yonge street. well i wasn't really there with her but she told me the story. she was with her friend and as soon as she stepped into the doors she was all "OMG CHIPOTLE!!! AAHHHH IT'S BEEN SO LONG SINCE I'VE HAD ONE. OMG OMG OMG" and everybody in the store was like wtf right? i mean i'd be like wtf too if i saw that. so apparently the manager came out and she explained how she used to eat at chipotle all the time back in denver. and she was like "omg like i used to work right beside chipotle's very first store by DU [denver university]!!!" and he was like "actually as a matter of fact i'm from colorado too! from boulder. you know what, how about i get you two burritos on the house"... and when she was telling me this i was like "why the hell didn't you get ME one???" ya she's like that. she's prolly gonna try to do the same thing this summer when victoria secret's gonna be coming into canada for the first time too. who knows, she might get free lingerie. so kind of random story but chipotle is just amazingly good shit. those who haven't tried some try one today!

pokemon stuff in this paragraph. not interested in it skip to the next one. the newest pokemon games (heart gold and soul silver) came out 2 weeks ago! the cheap ass that i am, i downloaded the games. ah, the joy of pirated products. i have this little gadget thingy that you pop into a USB called R4 and all my nintendo ds games are pretty much downloaded games. i've been trying to play the game regularly but i realize i'm much busier now than i was back in high school (which shouldn't the case... weird). and it's kind of frustrating too when you're playing the game and it freezes every 10 fucking minutes or so. so i gotta turn off the game and start from the last place i saved. what a bitch man.

i hate how you guys' blogs are so neat and customized and stuff and mine's black and boring. btw i chose black because it's one of my favorite colors. teach me guys! D=<

about me and my dad. i've just recently found out how much alike we are naturally. we barely do anything together but we share so many common interests we don't even know.
i love to explore new places. i love to read maps (geek), from world maps to national maps to local maps. knowing where i am or where things are makes me feel comfortable i know where to go when i need something. from reading the maps i move on to the next step. either i drive, take a bus, bike, or walk to that certain place. and then come back home. sometimes i don't even need to have a destination and just wander around randomly. just like mark, aka the wandering pom, quoted from tolkien "not all those who wanders are lost." i've been doing this since i was a kid back in my country and i would just walk around looking for "adventure" lol if you can call that. well my dad is exactly like this, he says (exploring new places, reading maps, wandering, the whole 9 yards).
a few months ago we both went to the library to use the computers. then he decided to take home some books. they were photography books. i didn't know he admired photography, like me.
we also have the same taste in music. maybe we just love art in general.
we both are fond of learning new languages.
we're both crazy for latina women. hola chica ;)
we're both considered to be the clowns of the party. we love to make jokes and to just laugh.
due to our comedic nature we can be quite popular in our communities--i think haha. (but i'm not really that funny on my blog)
but despite our similarities i have a better relationship with my mom. weird.

so i've been really low on budget these past few weeks. i remember when i last got my paycheck my money went down all the way to $78 in one day to pay this and that. but much of my money goes into my savings though because i'm trying to save up for the vaykay back to my country this summer. first time back since '97. its for a friend's wedding. glad that i can still speak the language quite fluently after all these years. so i've been like really really broke and i sometimes only eat 2 meals a day just to save money and stuff. i don't even know if i can reach my goal weight by this summer if i keep this up... err...

i was at the gym 2 days ago and something really weird happened. as i was just done with my workout i walked to my locker and there right in front of my locker were a pair of someone else's used briefs (it looked to be soiled) and their shoes... like wtf, in front of my locker. i thought maybe they belong to the dude on top of my locker (because the lockers were built with a top locker and a bottom one like in the pic). i opened it and it was empty... maybe the guy next to my locker. nope, empty too. like what kind of sick fuck deliberately puts his dirty briefs in front of my locker as if they want me to sniff them. sorry i'm not into that kind of shit--unless you were actually hot--just kidding. so then i just brushed it to the side and continued my business then took a shower.

*jumps to the next random topic* i find hot young dads really cute (not always the guy per se, just the situation itself). like guys in their early 30s/late 20s who just had a new born baby. i cant help but to smile just seeing them hold their kid in their arms. nothing cuter than to see a brawny brute holding one of the most delicate creations of nature... =)

so did you enjoy the rollercoaster ride? how many readers did i lose just now? lol
i've been giving out a lot of info of myself and i have a strong feeling that if anybody i know reads this they'd definetely figure me out. but really what are the chances somebody i know would come across this blog right?... RIGHT??? lol whatever. you wanna start drama shit with me? i welcome you.

i apologize to my "kinsey 6" readers of the girl in the pic. (anybody notice how much powder she's got on her face? you can tell when comparing her body skin color with her face lol) i love it when girls tease me. like when they do this or cover their tits with their hands or something. drive me bananas. they show some but not all, leaves me to the imagination. nomnomnomnom--sorry that was pervy.

i think i should talk about fashion more in my next post because some blogs bore me with hockey shit *cough cough mikey*. watching/playing it can be way cool but telling it is definetely something else -_- so i shall bore you guys with fashion shit. muahahaha

ok i gotta piss like a racehorse thx to the protein drink. so take care and God bless always guys.

colorado, slimmest mofo of the 50. brappp

i've been so lazy and have no time to write blogs anymore. eating is definetely taking up much of my schedule. 5 meals a day err... i was so used to my 3 meals a day before. so i'm taking this quick mass supplements thingy and i gotta take in a shitload of this stuff everyday. like 2 scoops at a time, 3 times a day. man i tried it for the very first time a couple weeks back n it is A LOT... i remember thinking to myself "what have i gotten myself into?..." so i'm kind of skinny (at least i think so) weighing in at 170 at 5'10". and my goal is to get to at least 185-190 by july. sounds like an impossible task... but dude i gotta work like a horse at the gym from now til july eh? i've never really wanted abs. i find them kinda weird-looking (even on other men). i just want to buff myself up you know? bigger chest, bigger legs, bigger arms, and definetely bigger ass. is there no exercise to bigger your schlong?

i wanted to blog about different stuff today. o ya its good friday tomorrow so i take the day off and get to sleep late and wake up late.

o i wanted to revive my lost paragraph (from my last post) as much as possible.

*thinks hard to remember especially after days the post was posted. and those who have not been following, trace back to the part where this shows up and it went screwy: yes ="])." style="font-style: italic;">adj. Of, relating to, or having a sexual orientation to persons of either sex.*


i left off at talking to my co-worker of what she thinks of my crush. and she said "he's ok" and i was thinking to myself "D=< woman are you blind?" she's into like cheesy-looking, douchey guys who you'd know right off the bat the moment you look at him that he's a player. those guys are disgusting. sometimes truly hot but disgusting.

then i have this other crush of mine at the gym. i know right, how do i choose just one out of all those amazingly hot men? this guy... ooh he is delicious. man he's really tall, at least 6'5". he's brown-haired, real nice build, and looks to be eastern european--weird again because i'm not usually into eastern european men (altho eastern european women, yes =]). he's got a nice face too.

out of these two gay crushes, which one would i prefer? not sure... the gym crush is just knee-weakeningly hot, a little hotter than the customer crush. the customer crush is really cute and is a little more charming than the gym crush. i don't know...

call me weird but i have no desire/have sexual fantasies to see them naked. i mean if i were to see them naked i'd totally get a hard on but it's not a must to see them naked. fantasizing about having a relationship with them is more accurate. cuddling with them. intimacy over lust. THIS is wut i consider to be what my gay crush would be.

so what again is my type of guy who i fantasize seeing naked? i like to call these men the "macho-ugly" men. twinks is out of the question... sorry. "skinny muscular" guys are not exactly what i want to see in the buff. it's those beefy, hyper-masculine, douchey, athletic, meathead, blue-collar worker, dirty, (sometimes jerks but not always) who i wanna see naked. think of cave man. with less hair--not too less. that's why i dont have too many sexual fantasies of too many celebrities cuz many of them are so damn pretty. guys like dwayne "the rock" johnson--many meaty pacific islanders in general are quite the fantasy for me (tall, built, tan, black-haired and masculine. just the way i like it). football players (tedy bruschi--but he's retired. mmm half italian half filipino... =]). rugby players. heavy-weight ufc fighters. etc. dont get me wrong, these guys dont usually fall into my "crush" category. i sometime may hate them even. some of them are just so pathetic. it seems the more i'd hate the (hot) guy the more i wanna see him naked. as if seeing them naked is the ultimate form of revenge. a form of disrespect.

for example there's this guy at my work who used to be really out of shape the first time he was hired and now he's hitting the gym like crazy. he looks hot and all but he's such a cool dude with me that i dont need to see him strip down or anything. i probably would have the urge more if he was hired HOT, and not out of shape and before he's become one of my best buds.

crazy right? so let me welcome you guys now into my head. let me TRY to explain my bizarre sexuality. finally the moment i've been holding off for so long. "now our feature presentation *cues 20th century fox theme song*"


ok so i was a missing SET of paragraphs, not the ONE paragraph i mentioned. and then that part continues to the damn definition of "bisexual" i had been trying to copy paste and instead cropped off that much of my post. there you go.

"now back to the usual program"

so i realize my posts will be very well influenced by my bloggers' posts. i read them, thoughts pop up, and they finally end up on my OWN post.

i read in one of the blogs i follow that u may know your true sexuality paying attention to the porn you look at. if you look at more gay porn then you're probably gay. if you enjoy watching lesbian porn then you're probably straight. but i enjoy watching BOTH (though like i said in my last post, my gay porn is strictly solo scenes). so who knows. i dont even like penis all that much. it's all about the thing in between his cheeks--the lower cheeks. i might come out in the future as gay, stay as bi, or (as unlikely as this sounds) maybe even realize i'm actually just straight. i dont know what label i belong in nor do i yearn to find such answer. its impossible.

i also read about one of mikey's favorite fast food restaurants called chipotle. they say its actually not "fast food" per se, more like "fast casual"--better quality ingredients but prepared, well,... fast. i used to live in denver (another clue to those readers who may know me), and it originated there so ya it's a big deal. and yes it is hella fucking good. big-ass burritos that many of my ex girlfriends cant even finish at once (funny how some of them can finish my dick in one gulp and they're about the same size--well maybe not the same size hehe =P) and if anybody is thinking of going down to denver, also try TOKYO JOE'S. very similar type of restaurants (fast casual) and just as delicious but JAPANESE. very healthy too. heh, no wonder them coloradoans usually have the lowest percentages of obese people in america. i miss denver

what else do i wanna talk about? i dunno my life's been really boring. i think i had a bunch of stuff in my head a few days back that i wanted to post on here but i think i totally forgot most of them now. i think imma have a lil midnight snack now.

o if you've noticed a little of how my writing style changes from time to time is because i tend to write a lot like mikey ("internet english" if you will) on day to day basis. i dont really want to write like him because people would think i'm trying to copy him or whatever--even though thats how i pretty much write like on facebook, instant message, txt messages--but i'm trying my best to write good english here. we young'ns are like that unfortunately. take care and God bless always.